No matter how 'old' I get, I still question myself. It is almost as if there is an autobiography inside my brain and I keep reading and writing new chapters. One of the questions I ask often is 'why don't you stick to one 'thing', one form, one format'? Others do this and are quite comfortable within themselves. I on the other hand, only seem able to flit back and forth from this to that.
But I think have finally figured out 'what I am'!! I am a 'wader'. I test the waters with my toes. I wade in - up to my ankles - loving everything that I'm doing. Often after testing the waters I dive deep and swim awhile.
What I am not is a 'long distance swimmer'. I must come on shore after a short of bit of getting wet. I then must move to another beach which beckons me. Realizing this about myself I can continue my journey on the edges of the water - perhaps gathering seashells as I go.
"I do not know what I may appear to the world, but to myself I seem to have been only like a boy playing on the seashore, and diverting myself now and then finding a smoother pebble or prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me." - Sir Isaac Newton